Old shit

I am in so much pain right now.  As I become more comfortable being transgendered and expressing myself more shit comes up from my past.  I know that the stuff I've been thinking about lately is just the very teeny tiny tip of the iceberg.  The only good thing is that the crying has made me tired so maybe I can get a decent sleep tonight.  There is stuff that has happened that I just plain don't want to deal with but I know it's coming and I can't make it stop.  I just have to keep telling myself that I lived through the things that happened and I can live through the feelings.